In reply to
http://doubletake.livejournal.com/63656.html:
(Spilled off into a rambly entry, 'cause it got so long and random that it might as well be a note to myself... sorries, I'm just grasping at straws here.)Oh gods, I do pretty much the same thing. Maybe not on such an explicit level, but it is just as bad.
When I got my palm pilot for example, it was exquisitely easy to make memos and lists. So aside from micro-journalling and doodling and games of Rogue, I naturally took to the ToDo application.
Indeed, I soon outgrew ToDo and migrated to the heirarchical Progect, constructing entire trees with pretty little checkboxes and progress indicators, exquisitely prioritized and organized by category. Like you said, it's actually more fun making and preening the lists than checking them off!
You can guess how much got done.
Nrrgh!Another problem I have with lists is that if it's a daily thing I look at, I cringe every time I do.. soon developing an aversion to the most neglected items, and gradually, to the entire list itself. Therefore much emo ensues, and I never look at them in the end, defeating all my effort. Still, if I don't
make those lists, these things stay in my mind, instead, for months or even years... which is even worse.
Day-specific schedules and todos are even more of a guilt trap. I always wound up rewriting them for the
next day, and then... you know.
So what to do?? @..@
The solution advocated in GTD is actually (in part) what you're leaning towards:
- Eliminating the expectation on a given day (within deadlines, just do the next doable thing);
- Never writing anything down, or thinking about it (to decide whether to actually do it, etc), more than -once-;
- Reviewing the notes and such, so you keep them off your brain;
- Making sure the "todo items" (as distinct from "projects") are actually things you can do in exactly one step. Otherwise, if it is sufficiently complex, it will be unclear and scary and confusing, and never get done (this stalls many of my programming ideas).
Another thing to consider is that if you have undone things of "top" priority, and the world hasn't ended... reconsider the priority. Sometimes enthusiasm and/or real-world use, fade with time, and that's fine.
Also, for things like 'clean cat box', he points out it's a waste of time to write them down. If you have nothing else pressing, just do the next small thing that comes to mind. If you don't want to spend all day, you could set a timer or something. This one small piece of advice, has, if nothing else, been a small victory over my emotions, and kept my room a lot cleaner...
Deadlines might work, but of course you need good time estimation skills, and I'm bad at that. An advantage in theory is that, when in doubt, you always know what you should work on first—order by due date.
"Should" is
my dirty word, by the way. The very mention reminds me that I
should and I
haven't yet. Ye gah.
I personally don't feel so great about the self-punishment. Basically that's because I already do it: I feel bad about putting things off, and underconfident about finishing them, which is why I put them off, which is why... d'oh! If I had the heaps of physical evidence on my desk to say "Wow! Draci's a great artist!", I might be a little more motivated. I need to like myself, first. The Shame Game is easily self-perpetuating, and anyway I have not seen myself actually follow any supposed 'punishments.'
Hm, maybe now that I'm succeeding with the diet, positive junkfood reinforcement would work better. I'm not a big sweet tooth, though. n..n And I guess I could start printing art, and putting it back up on my desk/wall.
OMG, daily art... I am perpetually forgetting. >..< How could I get a reminder? This actually is near the core of my problem. I have no 'trigger' to task-switch, and if I'm on a roll and unprovoked, will go on coding for 6-8 hours. These days, with my stressing over things-to-be-done, I just end up reading blogs and messageboards and crap. Slowly reading less, which has resulted in me pacing the house (in a proportionately greater amount) and bothering the cat instead.
Now if I could just find a way to stop stressing over all the things I *won't* be doing if I make a choice to do *something.* I don't know if there's an antidote to that, aside from a nice cold dunking.
Blah, I dunno. Time for posty, then maybe some drive-by artings. And fireworks, if I'm feeling up to it.